A woman and a girl. Isn't it odd how you can get all these things like a liscense, job, ect.... when you are so young yet not really know who you are or where you are going. What happened to the days when you would watch cartoons on Saturday mornings, and not have to go up at 6 in the morning for school. Time slips through my hands even when I try to catch it and hold on. It seemed only a few weeks ago I was 16 and now here I am 18. I really don't want to grow up, I don't want to be an adult or have any of those responsibilities. Ever been afraid of who and what will happen when you are on your own? I have some plans for the future but it's as if a lot of my childhood was robbed from me. I understand a lot of people have it worse than I do or did but that doesn't make it feel any different for me. I am just putting down my thoughts and not complaining or the way I see it, I am not. I want to just be me not have to worry about a ton of things. But it seems in this life that there is always something different I have to think of. Everyone needs to escape every now and then. My escapes are odd I know. Reading Harry Potter still transports me to a magical world, and eve online even though I have just started playing it. It makes you think and that is one reason I like it, you don't have a set on what you are supposed to be. I have never played a game such as it. I enjoy playing it immensely, whether I am upset or just need a reprieve from my life. I still need a lot of help on the game and despite hating to ask for help I still do. I guess this is just a bunch of scrambled up stuff in my head, but isn't that how everyone is. sometimes I wish there were little filing cabinets where your brain could file everything. So my thoughts wouldn't be as all over the place. Well that's all